“She asked me not to.”
The betrayal was different this time, but it still hurt.
“How did you even know?”
Mark rubbed a hand over his face. “Because she called my wife after one of her appointments. She didn’t have anyone else nearby. Claire drove her home twice.”
I felt my stomach twist.
Claire.
Mark’s wife.
Someone outside our marriage had been helping Sophie while I slept in my apartment and told myself distance was healing.
“She didn’t want you to know,” Mark said. “Claire wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you. Sophie begged us not to.”
“And you listened?”
“She said you were barely holding yourself together after the divorce.”
I laughed once, bitterly. “That was generous of her.”
Mark’s voice turned firm. “Don’t make this about pride.”
I looked at him.
He was sitting there with stitches in his chest, and somehow he still managed to look at me like an older brother about to tell me the truth I had avoided.
“You left, Ethan,” he said. “I know you were hurting. I know you thought you were doing the right thing. But you left. Whatever Sophie did afterward, she did because she believed she couldn’t depend on you.”
I wanted to argue.
I wanted to defend myself.
But the words wouldn’t come.
Because deep down, I knew Mark was right.
He sighed. “That doesn’t mean you can’t show up now. But don’t show up expecting forgiveness just because you’re scared.”
I looked toward the window, at the city beyond the hospital glass.
“What am I supposed to do?”
“Start small,” he said. “And stay consistent.”
After leaving Mark’s room, I walked two blocks in the cold wind to find the tea shop. I bought peppermint tea, honey sticks, a plain notebook, and the softest pair of socks I could find in a little gift store next door.
It felt ridiculous.
A man trying to make up for abandonment with tea and socks.
But I didn’t know what else to do.
When I returned to Sophie’s floor, visiting hours were almost over. Dr. Keller stood outside her room, speaking quietly to another doctor. He noticed the paper bag in my hand.
“She’s resting,” he said.
“I can leave these.”
He looked at the bag, then at me.
“Are you planning to stay involved?”
