My brother wore a bright red suit to our father's funeral, and I was furious.
I thought he was being disrespectful.
He was being brave—
exactly as brave as our dying father had prayed he'd become.
Because sewn into the lining of that impossible red suit
was the letter our father spent sixty years too scared to write,
and a fund he'd been quietly building for thirty,
for the art school he'd forbidden,
with a note that said: don't be gray like me; be bright like you.
He spent Eric's childhood dimming him.
He spent his own last year building a way to say sorry.
And he left the apology sewn into a suit so loud
that only a son brave enough to wear it
would ever find the love inside.
Eric wore the red.
He found the letter.
And the brightest boy in our family
finally learned the truth his father died to tell him:
that he was loved most for the very color
he'd been made to hide—
