And he said: “It’d have come
to the same drawer, love.”
Which was him telling me, without saying it, that he had worked out what his wife had done and had decided not to spend his last four months on it.
Loretta.
We speak.
I did not expect that and a good number of people think I am mad.
She has the children one Sunday a month. She is extremely good with them, which I find difficult and which is nonetheless true.
And in the June she said the only thing she has ever said to me about the drawer that was not a defence.
She said: “I used to take it out and look at it. Every year on their birthday.”
She knew the date. She had worked it out from the scan photograph in 2017 and she had the date in her head for eight years, and every September that woman took a letter
out of a bureau in an empty front room and looked at a picture of four grandchildren and put it back.
